I don't like this time of year. It's not because of the weather change, it's more than welcome! I don't like this time of year because it's just another reminder that I no longer have MY mom. I have all these constant daily reminders that she is no longer here, and then there is Mother's Day to remind me. Again. Joshua and I were at the store today and I almost started to cry. Not once, but twice. I felt the tears form, and tried to make them go away. It worked. I saw this robe that I know she would have loved. It was light blue with butterflies. She loved blue and butterflies. I looked at Joshua and told him how much I missed her, and how she would have loved him so much. I know it's been a while, and I thought it would get easier. There are days where it seems as it has, and then there are days where I feel like I am starting all over again. Abbie has some memories of my mom, and I am hoping between us, we will make Joshua feel like he knew her, even though he never got the chance to.
Just My 2 Cents.
Today, we were at Walmart on Watson Blvd getting some odds and ends, and school supplies. An annoucement came on stating there was going to be a fashion show in the front of the store. Fine. No biggie. We continued on our way. We make our way around the store, and are headed up to the front. Actually, we were passing by the frozen foods. We hear music. Loud music. I listen, and within two beats of the song I know exactly what it is, and I was shocked! It was a song by Rhianna called S & M. That in itself was bad enough. I look at Gary and told him I couldn't believe that they were playing that in a store, and it WASN'T the edited version either. I ask a store worker if they knew who picked that song out, and she said no..and pointed me to the manager. So, Joshua and I head on over there as Gary and Abbie are checking out. I asked him who picked that song out, as I didn't feel it was an appropriate song, and I don't want to worry about having to explain to my 6 y/o ...
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